//Aha💡 moments with God in Motherhood\\
My first one came in the middle of the night after having had him home just a few days.
We changed his diaper. I fed him. We swaddled him. We took it off. We held him. We put him down. We checked his temperature. We sang to him. We tried to get him to sleep.
But his cries resounded through the whole house.
Nothing could get him to stop crying.
We felt helpless.
The most comforting thing that I could dig up in me to tell him was, “Don’t be scared. I am here with you, baby.”
And in that moment I heard the Holy Spirit remind me of all the many times I asked Him,
“What good is it to me to feel my heart break, only to hear You say, ‘I am with you.’?”
Over and over again we read in Scripture, “Do not fear for I am with you.”
And I never really cared for it. I never truly understood why that was God’s response.
When my chest would physically ache from the pain of a break up,
When I didn’t know how I’d have any cash left for food,
When I didn’t want to linger in the world anymore,
“Do not fear for I am with you.” is what I’d hear.
Why wasn’t it,
“I’m taking your pain away immediately.”
Or
“I’m changing your circumstances now.”?
While rocking my son, back and forth, side to side, in the middle of the night, after having exhausted every other method, I understood, appreciated and LOVED those scriptures.
Because while in our human limitation, our mere company might be the best we could offer our child,
When God offers His company it is not because He lacks the ability to bring other means of comfort but because it actually is the best solace any of us could have.
What a privilege that as parents we get to mirror that for our children! 🥰
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