"If you have a willing heart to let me help you, and if you will obey me, you will feast on the blessings of an abundant harvest."
Isaiah 1:19 TPT
About a month ago,
The Lord placed on my heart to host a Women’s “Galentine’s” Prayer Board party.
Lately He’s been gently but intensely teaching me a different layer to obedience.
But even still I ignored the prompting since I’ve never really cared for Valentine’s Day, I didn’t know what a prayer board party was and I don’t really have a ton of friends out here 🤣.
But God kept at it so I finally gave in and I invited all the women and girls in our family.
I thought if I’m going to do this, I want the theme to be more meaningful than just one of general love.
I landed on a “Wild about you” theme.
It was meant as a play on what Psalm 45:11 says & the expected romance of Valentine’s.
I believe God fervently wants His daughters and those yet to become His daughters to know how crazy He is about them!
As the date approached, I started to find joy in the preparations necessary for it, in the crafts and the colors and in the gifts the Lord was having me put together for the girls.
Gradually, many of the women invited let me know they wouldn’t be able to make it. And actually, my mother in law would be the only one to attend! (Don’t feel bad for me 🤣 It’s not the point of why I’m sharing this and it actually turned out to be great time!)
She was so sweet in telling me not to worry about setting up too much food since it’d just be the two of us but I thought to myself, “Well, I know God wanted me to do this, so I’ll still do it and treat it as if every one were attending.”
Then we got the news about Rob.
In a brief thought, I considered not hosting anything anymore but that passed quickly. I actually became even more determined to do it.
My heart may have been aching, I may have suddenly broken down in tears, but I guess in my stubbornness I refused to give the enemy the satisfaction of watching me become defeated.
Instead he had to sit there and watch me worship my way through the day and the week and follow through in my obedience to God regardless of how I was feeling because it’s ultimately not just about me.
In fact, that same day after hearing the news I was resolute in creating an ambiance of beauty and defiant joy in our home, I went out and found the brightest of flowers and purposed to make beautiful things anyway.
God knew the timing of all the events which tells me He must’ve wanted to see the extent of my faithfulness even in something as seemingly trivial as an arts and crafts prayer party with my husband’s mom.
But I also think there were specific prayers He wanted us to pray, specific people He wanted us to intercede for, specific people whom He wanted to make feel special and remembered, specific gifts He wanted us to give, and specific fellowship He wanted us to have.
The two of us closed up our time of poster crafts together by taking turns to pray over the words we wrote and the ones we have yet to.
I felt the presence of the Holy Spirit so strongly as I was praying that the only way I am able to fittingly describe it is with the word, fire.
It had been so long since I had sensed Him in that way and I don’t really quite know yet what we stirred in the spirit realm but I know He is moving!
A long time ago, a woman I used to be mentored by encouraged me to give to others, to pray for others, to bless others and to find ways to serve others in my lowest moments.
I thought that was the oddest way to navigate healing.
But I get it now.
I don’t know what is on the other side of my mother in law’s prayers or my “yes” in having her come over in spite of the past week, but I do know that had I disobeyed, I would’ve missed out on the joy of giving, I most likely would have grieved in unhealthy ways all week and unseen doors would’ve remained closed.
Today I am grateful for His kind persistence to not leave me as He found me especially when my heart is still healing.
”If you have a willing heart to let me help you, and if you will obey me, you will feast on the blessings of an abundant harvest.“
Isaiah 1:19 TPT
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